Missing my old paycheck

There I was in Grand Asian grocery store. Gosh, I love that store. But today, what I really want is to fill up my grocery cart with loads of chocolates sweets. BUT that is out of the question. I cut down on sugar and sweets. Simple reason is... no dental insurance.

So, with one big breath, I shoved my grocery cart in the other directions. When there is no money 'in' then there is no money 'out' (spending). That is law of money for me. However, I need to eat. I realize more and more when you have little money your choices are very limited to what I "need" and not "want". Case in point in the grocery store... I would not have thought twice on buying a few extra items. But now I have to think in bulk and cheaper in a pack. Not necessary junk food. I passed on Calamari salad which I drooled over. Passed over the pre-packaged seaweed salad and pork buns.

I have never been without money so I feel great sorrow for someone who has to truly live each day like this.. making hard choices for their family. Bread.. no bread. Milk for baby but no orange juice for his sister. I am one person. I can't imagine how to shop/feed a family on a tight budget.

As I passed through my last aisle, all my mind could say is eat more rice noodles, which are cheap. However, I only know one kind of soup (Pho) to make. Hmmmmmm....I am cooking more at home nonetheless.

When, I reached the checkout counter, all I could is think I miss you 'money'. I wish I had been more wiser in conserving more of you. I wish I had respected you more when I had you."