Resignation

Flashback to 12/16/2009:
I submitted my resignation into my company. I felt like a house fell on top of me. At first, I thought I would be happy to leave but it turns out I was so sad leaving some people behind especially my boss. I pray she does not have any resentment towards me. I really feel she and I were made from the same cloth. We have alot of same emotions towards others. I am floored by her kindness and how gracious she is when I told her I was leaving. She is always saying positive things about me. She gives me hope. When I doubted myself she "believed" in me. I will never forget her act of kindness. Now, I have that same "hope" to give to others. I hope for a better world, homeless will have a home, my pain will end, my husband will appear, my children will come. I hope to be part of unit/family someday. I have 'hope' that God will give me a beautiful life. One of amazement and strength.

I uttered these very powerful words "My God is my God, My Lord is my Lord, and where He goes I will follow". That gives me such immense strength.

I was thinking of how unstable the economy is and for one to leave your job. Voluntary leave the nest egg that I was living. I was quite sorrowful of how I was not appreciative of things that were given to me on daily basis. I am so sorrowful that I had not made a decent contribution to my team/company. It breaks my heart. This was life I have know for about 11 years of my life and here it is that the door is closed.

I realized yesterday that I am already 'rich'. Rich with family, friend, and home. Money is a funny beast. It moves and flows. It can spent, loss, made. So I know in my heart I can make over my previous base pay. That is my goal. Go business or go bust.