I have someone who helped me on my team but since my vision is going in another direction. I am rethinking my involvement in a women's club which I support and pay dues. I am not sure it is best avenue to attract readership/fans to my website. I was hoping to draw like minded women to this club so they could provide some quality feedback, and suggestions. Since the website is not up and running and I did once announce it and got no feedback. I wonder how much time, money, and energy I want to spend on this.
I got in trouble by feeling 'sorry' for this person and I started paying for her meals, parking, and other incidentals for being in this club. But now I am resenting it because one..I see how she spends her money eating out and she makes no effort to try to creatively conserse money when she is unemployed. Now, she has the expectations that I have to pay for her involvement. I did ask her to be an assistant organizer and at the beginning I did state I would pay. But she wants to grow this club and do more activities which translates into money...she is forgetting the main overall purpose of why I created it in the first place. I don't have alot of money to spend right now doing activities which takes me from my real focus of creating, producing, and launching my website.
I am now angry I made a poor decision. I realized what good intentions I had in the beginning is not so good now. I was denied a business loan so the money is now coming from my saving.
I am really really angry. This has taught me a valuable lesson on who you bring aboard, and if they see your vision. If you have someone who wants to dominate or run the other direction with no focus then it chaos on the business owner.
My heart is breaking right now since I caused this infliction upon myself. But I see also that she is taking me for granted and have no reality check to understand what a burden this is now creating on me both emotional and financial.
Goodness....
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